diaryRichelle HenryApril 13, 2022career goals, diary, aprilComment

RATHER BE

diaryRichelle HenryApril 13, 2022career goals, diary, aprilComment

Today’s post is inspired by a song by H.E.R. and a transition currently happening in my life.

That one Drake line rings in my ear all the time. The moment I stop having fun with it I’ll be done with it. Trueeee. Professionally I’ve always kind of felt like I was in limbo. Of course there are specific things that I want to do and accomplish, but I’ve felt like the stepping stones to get there have been “ehh”. My dream has always been to merge fashion and tech somehow, and I know exactly the path I want to take. The journey there, not so fun. The roles I’ve taken are definitely useful, but the deeper I dive into this side, the more I find that I don’t want to do, just to keep going. I haven’t always been one that wants to climb ladders here, be someone’s boss. If my role in tech turns into leadership naturally, I guess that’s fine. My overall goal is not to be responsible for everyone’s success or failure, but I love to contribute to people’s overall experience in any case. Other people see differently for me, of course. I just want to engineer materials for different industries. I don’t need recognition, just compensation that satisfies me and other dreams I have.

So what is Chelle doing now to make that happen?

Well, Chelle’s in between blessings right now. About a month ago, I was unexpectedly terminated from my contract with a job and company I actually saw myself growing with. Some people may consider that getting comfortable, and they’re probably right. I finally got to the point where work didn’t seem aimless and useless. I was chasing after grown adults, trying to convince them to do their job so that I could do mine. Who wants to do that, even if they are getting paid? It wasn’t the most fun or fulfilling, but then I got the offer to do more. My manager and I had a brief meeting before the last quarter of 2021 was over, and he explained that, “I did great work, was a valuable asset, and no one wanted to let me go.” First of all, how often does that happen, where upper management actually thanks you for being the productive employee you were hired to be? Rare. I was grateful, until my face got spat in by that same manager. To put it simply, I was lied on, and that was clear based on my work ethic and the relationship I had with clients and coworkers. I needed to be pushed out as quickly as possible so someone else could replace me. Personally, it felt like time to move on, but there were better ways.

Today, I’m making it a point to apply to so many jobs everyday, at least 5. If I’m motivated to do more, great. If not, great. At least I can say I met my requirement, and I’m satisfied with the effort I’m putting in to survive. It’s been difficult, because I’m a social girl and the funds are not giving material gworl. When I’m going through something, I don’t always isolate. I typically choose solitude so I can gather myself, but these days, I need company. I need to not be sitting at home, with no hope. That’s not my ministry. My ministry is deep and wide faith that covers every inch of doubt the world tries to lay on me. I need to be out sharing my faith, my smile, my wisdom with others so that even I don’t feel the effects of the valley. I’m staring my mountain in the eye and commanding it to move. That’s my portion.