DAY 1
What does the first day of every month mean to you? I don’t think I ever attached any meaning to it unless it’s a new year, or I’m paying rent. I wonder what it means to you because today, I had a new thought.
As a woman, we’re supposed to experience monthly menstrual cycles. Very normal, sometimes very painful and uncomfortable, but ultimately purposeful. We know that cycles are what give us the ability to produce eggs and other hormones that help us have children. We birth humans - incredible! Well, I was thinking about something a minister at my church said in his sermon this past Sunday. He talked about keeping the word so deep in your heart and soul, that you are impregnated with it, and you birth truth. Your life produces something in Christ. There’s a scripture in the Bible that basically says, whatever is in your heart will come out. If there’s wickedness, jealousy or envy inside, it will show on the outside. You’ll project it onto others, and whether you think they deserve it or not doesn’t matter. Possessing love, gentleness, and faith is the blueprint to moving mountains, to witnessing to people so God can save their soul.
This isn’t the message I wanted to write tonight, but here I am. To be completely honest, I’m dealing with an obnoxious neighbor who walks like she wants to put a hole through my ceiling. I’ve done everything I can to stop her - knocking on her door, leaving a note, calling the office - and nothing has changed. It’s unfair, it’s super uncomfortable and just wrong to disturb someone in their home every day, whenever you want. But what you sow you shall reap. If you sow hate, that’s what you’ll receive in return. As a child of God I’m not called to give an eye for an eye, but to forgive 70 times 7 (whew - Father help me). It’s HARD! This is the third lease I’ve had with someone who disturbs my peace in my home. It’s really in God’s hands, and while I want to trust Him, this is hard. I want to know how He’s going to fix it. To be honest I want Him to move her, or move me. I don’t think I care which, but I know what my solution looks like. Just pray with me and for me, that I have the patience to wait on Him, and let Him fight this battle because it is indeed a battle.
This really is a cycle and I have to say I’m having trouble seeing the purpose in it, but I know there is one. It’s uncomfortable and definitely painful, but it’s going to work for my good. The first of every month is going to mean something different for me now, and I just hope i can see God in it every time.
