DONT FORGET ABOUT GOD
I was in bed the last night thinking about the spiritual habits I had in 2020. I was remembering where I prayed, how often I fasted, the scriptures I studied. I want to get back to that. So I talked to God as I was going to sleep, just thinking about how I need to move. I was telling Him about how I noticed that hard things seemed bearable, I had less worry, less aches in my body. I need that restoration in a big way right now.
This time last year I was struggling with a health issue I didn’t even know I had until a month or so later. It got progressively worse, but God showed something new to me in every stage of that issue. I don’t think I’ve regressed per say, but I think there’s something new to see here and I want to know what that is. So guess what I’m going to do - same thing as last time. I let God do what He does best. I trusted Him to get the glory and show me the good that was in it for me. He turned some things around, but I was prepared to let His grace be sufficient and be thankful even if He didn’t.
So here’s what I want to do more of.
I want to wake up early to read my bible,
find more treasures and rediscover scripture I already knew. Let the Holy Spirit give me new revelation. I used to spend so much time in the morning with God, sometimes outside on my balcony. I’d go outside and sing a hymn, and some days I’d record it and share it on Instagram.
I want to get back to regularly testifying.
I came up with Trust Him Tuesday on Instagram - a live event where I shared reasons I had to trust God, talking about trials and how God was proving Himself to me, etc. I did it weekly because I missed testimony service on prayer meeting Tuesdays at church. We had been out of church for almost a year and I needed more activities that would feed my spirit. It became so much more than that. I’m taking it to tiktok now and I did my first one not too long ago. I hope God is pleased with my private prayers and public displays of faith.
Fasting
-a common thing for me. I think I knew the importance of what it could do for answered prayers, but I need it for cleansing. It taught me more than just discipline, but full dependence on God along with the intention to follow through on faith with my actions. I feel my backbone was stronger and I had less issue with giving things up for the sake of getting closer to God. While fasting I think people spend too much time thinking about the food they can’t have, versus the nourishment they can get if they focus on God. Most times I would read more of my bible, or setup a worship session in my house. I’d call my mom and talk to her about what I was reading. I’d pray. I used to say all the time, “If a man can be discipline and dedicated to a video game or job, he should be just as committed to God.” Men put their time into what they want to (including us ladies). Fasting from things that pull your heart away from God is important. You need to be able to say, “No, God’s more important. I need Him more than I want this.” Our generation is money and sex hungry, and we can’t focus on what’s important because we feel like we need to satisfy our flesh to make it shut up. Feeding Seymour only made him want more, and the same goes for our flesh.
I want to spend more time outside.
I felt God’s presence most when I could go outside, night or day, and just look at creation. The trees, water and the sky were my biggest connects. I would go outside and look at the stars and think about how God knows exactly how many stars there are, which one came before the other, where they’re supposed to be placed, and STILL He knows my name. He knows the plan He has for my life and He’s so intentional about the Holy Spirit guiding me there. He knows how to reach me, and I know how to reach Him. These things make me feel so small but I can be a part of the worship they do everyday, answering His voice when He says be still, or when He tells the moon to rise and fall. There’s something so incredible about a God who cares about my soul just as much as He cares about a bird not having food to eat.
