COULD NEVER BE ME... OR COULD IT?

Welcome back to another episode of Midnight Epiphanies with Chelle.

I love these moments where I’m in bed, reflecting, talking to myself (or rather allowing my conscience to talk to me). I feel these moments are necessary for my growth, having a chance to better understand myself. Tonight, I was specifically thinking about accountability again, about how acknowledging error HAS to be followed by changed behavior and mindset. Now, I think it also deals with making a decision to not HAVE to change, because you’re already where you should be.

Now, let me explain. I came across this tweet today that made me say, “Hmm, not quite sis.” I understood where sis was coming from, but based on my faith, I couldn’t subscribe to what was said. This is the tweet:

I believe she was coming from the perspective of people lacking empathy and compassion, which she kind of explains. However, because I believe we’re given intuition, wisdom and discernment for a reason, some things are absolutely never going to be me.

I wonder, sometimes, why we are such big believers in affirmations for attaining things, but we don’t believe in the power of our tongue to stop or prevent things. Why can’t I speak life with words like “I will not entertain or resort to pettiness” or “I am in control of my emotions, and I will not let anger overtake me”? I do understand that some things take unlearning, and guidance towards a different direction, but I think we focus too much on what “the universe will or won’t allow.” What will you decide? What will you choose?

I think about this kind of often. I have not been in very many relationships, or really any. Not being in a relationship, didn’t separate me from people who had been. I’ve learned from others’ mistakes and even intentional downfalls, for lack of a better word. Not being in a relationship does not disqualify me from having wisdom about how to be in [a healthy] one. I know for a fact that not being in a relationship has saved me from having to learn a LOT of things the hard way. I’ve been blessed to have the perspectives I do, blessed to have evolved from some lies I believed about love and relationships. Some things absolutely could never be me because I’ve seen enough for myself to never step foot in the territory of those things. This does not make me higher or better, but it does give me an advantage. I have the opportunity to rise above what I see and know it’s not meant for me.

You want to know how I’m so confident? My identity is so solid, rooted in truths that will never change. I know who I am, and whose I am, and that truth protects me from a lot of hurt, harm and danger. There is a lot of evil surrounding relationship, and that was purposefully planned by the enemy to make people resent companionship, fellowship, all the “-ships”. I’m grateful to know that what I stand for and how I stand for them gives me the power to speak against that, and ultimately speak blessings into my life. I’m careful with my words, because I know that they DO mean something, they DO hold power. I think we should honor ourselves more, and maybe we would be able to share this sentiment.

These are just my thoughts, and I know it probably was a tad all over the place. Hopefully, you caught my drift. I was kind of triggered when I read it because I felt like someone would read it and feel like they were put in a box. That’s how I felt, but it was immediately followed with, “No. I can speak against anything that’s not like God’s purpose for my life. So, I’m right. That could never, will never be me.”

What could never be you? Comment below.

Xoxo, richelle k.