10LBS FORWARD 20LBS BACK
Months ago, when I began this lifestyle, I said, “If I am not where I want to be at the end of the year, it is my own fault.” I want to to say I recant, sorta. Here’s why
My weight is not my issue, and I acknowledge that.
My issue WAS discipline, accountability, and control.
Control doesn’t exist but I thought it did, and I proved it by thinking that cold turkey cutting things off was my solution. Rather than reminding myself that slow and steady wins the race (or marathon, whatever), I tried skipping to the success. I can accept these failures because I’m able to hone in on why it happened so fast and hard. I’m not ashamed to say I lost 10lbs then gained 20lbs (well… I kinda am but we’re gonna unpack that in therapy one day). My reality is that I am now 10lbs heavier than I originally was. It hurts to be honest, because I’m a hard worker. Anything I do, I do with it the most passion and heart, but a lot of times without the follow through. The intention is always there, but it’s not about that is it?
I have this approach to more than just fitness and working out. Most of us do. It’s detrimental and we hurt ourselves not ‘fessing up to the fact that we hold ourselves back being afraid, putting up a façade to impress. Do you ever put on a brave face for yourself? The person we lie the most to is ourselves. “I’m just gonna have a couple scoops, then I’ll put it up. I’m gonna run this off in the morning.” First of all, run? It took me a few years to get back into cardio FOR REAL.
It’s okay to say we are struggling, but it is not okay to pretend that we aren’t,
then deny ourselves help for fixing our problem. The most sad part about things like this, is that the solution is always there, readily available and accessible to us. We’re not even going to talk about the times it’s not but we still have trouble ASKING for help. We don’t have to do more, but have to do better, sis. I’m going to do better for me because NO ONE ELSE CAN. I can’t do better for you, but I can pray, and believe in you to get it done.
That’s it. That’s our hard talk for today. Do you feel better? I hope so, cuz it’s love ALWAYS.
Xoxo, richelle k.
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